Friday 30 June 2017

Sweet Love

Heya

So I was recently asked about what I am passionate about, as in what gives me life and the first thought I had was money, a LOT of money but a fraction of a second after I thought money was my passion, I realized it was not. So I visualized that if I was a dollar millionaire today, then would that give me life, that zest that we all want and like to feel and the simple answer to this was, NO. Sure being MS. Money bags would not hurt but it would not leave me feeling that zing…

So almost 2 weeks have passed now since I was asked this question and I still don’t have the answer, at one point I had settled on that I am passionate about teaching people about how to establish a healthy relationship with money, I was crashed yet again when it hit me that my own relationship with money is falling apart (Not that it was ever stable), but now it is just going south.

The quest to find my passion led me to realize why I didn’t really know what gives me life. How can I know what gives me life when I am not living it but just existing? I look in the mirror and I do not recognize the person staring back at me, literally. I have gained so much weight that I don’t look like myself anymore, which ripples to me not feeling like myself, therefore I do not behave like myself and this has led to me being the opposite of being a G. How can I be a Geenius without the G.
Fattie bella


So my biggest aspiration right now is to be a Geenius, again, because that woman knows what she wants, she is assertive, she is beautiful, she is kind, she knows her worth, she is brilliant and because she knows she deserves to be phenomenal and is phenomenal, she shows up and will show up…


Goalz (I aspire to ukuveza ithanga gape)

So my biggest aspiration right now is to be a Geenius, again, because that woman knows what she wants, she is assertive, she is beautiful, she is kind, she knows her worth, she is brilliant and because she knows she deserves to be phenomenal and is phenomenal, she shows up and will show up…

So here is to making the hard but necessary decisions to being who I want to be.

Love, Geenius.